Raves and BOOM

We walked around Arlington U, everybody was talking about Claire Bennet, i guess the way to get noticed in this college is by jumping off of high places.

"blah blah blah" i said, i was wearing my black attire, but i'm not a total goth, it's a hot day so i'm wearing short shorts (black) a Ramones T-shirt (black) that says Gabba Gabba hey!

i walked around, a blonde and two brunettes walked past (thinking about Claire) they were worried about her, everyone else was gossiping about it and they were worried! must have been friends.

"rave starts tonight" says Lucy. i nodded and dragged Lucas all over campus (i was hungry).

the rave started at the animal testing place. we yelled chants picket signs, and screamed at people, a few fights but nothing major. The n a guard came out, i really wanted to help these people so i convinced the guard (telepathicaly) to let us in.

we let the animals run free and knocked out the guards, then a guy came running dow the hall, bronzed over eyes, he made a mad grab for me he was after me! but why? everyone else was out now and Lucas was waiting for me anxiously outside, as a i began to run for the entrance i saw it close, he shot what felt like an invisible bullet at me it scrapped my arm, i couldn't override whatever was controlling his mind, he was still after me i ran up stairs, jumped the railing and headed downstairs.

i ran through the dark halls, i opened my phone up, light shone through as my eyes widened i heard his heavy footsteps. their i saw it, a bunch of people were on a table all of them were being sedated, i pulled out their sedation things, i had to get them out as they came round a girl of about 25,26 (she looked younger but i could tell she was around that) asked me:

"where the hell were you 1 year ago?!" she leaped off the table and i steadied her, she shot a huge storm of electricty and the room lit up and the man was burned to a crisp, then Lucas fell through the roof.

"Lucas!" i cried, the blond girl (i'm just gonna call her Blondie) scowled at us, he thoughts were a bit paranoia filled but whatever.

another came to, she looked exactly like Blondie!

"thank you so much!" she cried, i liked her better than Blondie, "Elle did you say thank you?!"

"they were late" her sister explained.

"i'm Kristen, friends can call me Kris or Kristie"

"hi Kristen" i said. she looked a bit taken a back but that didn't matter, other's were coming to now.

"we gotta go, but then-

BANG! a huge wave of flames spread through the room, and then followed by water, then acid, Lucas made a hole in the wall so we could get out, i grabbed out a gun i had gotten (don't ask how i got it, all will be explained someday) and shot at the guy who was giving off radiation, i missed him and it got him in the arm, he went berserk! everyone ran as fast as they could and i tried to calm him, i couldn't be responsible for more deaths, then Lucas disintegrated him! he looked torn up about doing so but he did it and that was good of him.

"thanks" i said

"don't thank me yet" he said, then the water guy froze the entire place he looked out of control, before we could do anything the entire place shattered, and news camera's were everywhere, i made them forget and Lucas destroyed their camera but i couldn't make one of them forget, he had bronze eyes too, and he was holing a camera, what was worse was before we could blink, he was gone.

Roxy's Revelation

i woke Lucas up telepathically, he needed to know that the world knew about powers.

"that is dumbest girl in the world! blondes say they want to be treated equally but this blond is like the epitome of-"

"use another big word and i'll cut you" i said.

"we need to diffuse this" Lucas' face shone with worry, the sun had just began to rise he looked tired as hell, "any idea's?"

"i could kill her" i said, it just slipped out, im 80% sure it was jokingly though. he glared at me shocked.

"that was a joke" i said.

"better be" he said, i heard Roxanne stirring, before i could send her back to sleep she asked me something.

"how long have you had a power?"

"i-i-i" i stuttered, i had no idea she knew! how? "i don't know what you're talking about" i said.

"yes you do, i heard you wake him up tell him about powers being discovered, and then your incessant ramblings followed" she said, "sorry, but i had to use a big word, i'll cut myself later" she said sarcastically.

"do you have a power?" i asked her.

"used to, but then i got wind of Claire Bennet's 'attempt' as she so delicately put it, so i knew that people would be after us soon enough, and even if they weren't imagine societies prejudices against us! The whole reason i suggested that we stop over at the New Ages festival is so i could meet up with a Payed Aurris, which is an Aurris who is payed for taking people's powers" she explained.

"what power did you have?" i asked her, she grabbed out her ipod and showed us a video.

"okay, i'm only gonna do this once so hold that camera steady" said a younger version of Roxy.

her hands flew to her sides and ground rose above her and twisted in the air, old house's sunk through the ground and as more people walked by and watched the more who were killed, she showed no remorse, she's a murderer but it was either kill them or be killed.

"The names Roxanne Harper and i just killed a whole bunch of people, 128 to be exact. Reece you better have held that freakin camera steady, now off!" the camera fumbled but turned off.

"earth?"

"i'm a new agey hippy would'ya spect?" she asked, "for me to be nucular?"

"are the others powered too?"

"god no! Reece doesn't even know about my powers anymore, i had a friend take away his memories while building 26 was operating, i couldn't take risks"

"what was building 26?" I asked, Lucas nodded he wanted to know too.

"doesn't matter now" she said solemnly.

we were all awake now, Lucy was driving, we would be at Arlington U in about an hour, we'd convinced Roxy to keep our secret (she didn't need any persuasion).

"hey Ja-Anya, can you pass over a soda?" asked Lucas, we were trying to get used to our new names.

"yeah sure James" i said. my ipod in my ears blaring some heavy metal i'd got off Jack's computer, it was some thing by a band called Warlords, they were pretty good!

we stopped over at a little diner for a bite to eat, i really liked their fries. it was uneventful, a guy did come in intent on robbing it, but i sent him on his way before he could say a word.

my next post will be at the rave in Arlington.

Finding Out and Dying inside

We've just left Danville here Virginia, we plan on stopping over at Arlington for this huge rave about animal rights, that sounds cool.

iv'e been awake for 5 days, i can't sleep, i'm hyped up on coffee, while everyone's asleep i silently sob, the thoughts of everything creep up on me sometimes, Lucas is still in shock over the whole me killing the fortune lady, he tried to stay up with me but i got him to just go to sleep, i'm driving still, i convince myself to stay awake, my subconscious tempts me into the darkness of my dreams but i won't follow. too painful.

iv'e come up with a system, if i fall asleep even for a second i cut my arm, the pain keeps me awake, proves i'm alive and can feel.

against my better judgment, Defying Gravity entered my mind and i hummed the tune quietly. i hated my life but i couldn't bare it if i went back home, why do i continue to call it home?

my new name is Anya, Anya Stevens. it's not fancy but it works, Lucas has taken the name James Valley, again, not flashy.

i have large dark circle under my eyes but i don't care, i don't have the strength to care.

our next switch is in an hour, the roads are clear and iv'e always been good at multi tasking, hence the blogging and driving simultaneously.

when we get to Arlington we plan on going to that rave and stopping animal testing, but i'll watch out for the- omg!

i just saw this video! omg! a girl just jumped off a sixty foot ferris wheel!? how did i not- oh yeah, i haven't really been looking at the latest news, i sent the vid out to to everyone on my friends list, i had to, i loved to gossip.

oh yeah, Kate Ramone was on that list, she'll never see it, i bet she would have gotten a kick out of this. so sad.

New Ages

Sorry i haven't posted for a while, its been wild!

I let my new hippy friends stop off at a secret festival held out in the middle of nowhere: New Ages.

The music was the kind i had never heard before, unknowns i guess, singing about final statements, like the kind we talked about in the car last post.

i looked through the sea of people, some seemed to be dressed like they belonged at Woodstock! others looked like they were in the live aid concerts back 85'! all these people loved the past so much and saw so profoundly, it was so strange! but cool, Lucas looked bewildered and unsure about this place, but so was i.

"this place has some of the greatest music ever AND most of them live around here in trailers! nowhere else to go" said Jack, i nodded but i was off to see the future in a nearby tent.

Lucas had followed me to make sure i don't get into any trouble.

"Ah, Jane, what brings you in here?" asked a woman with flames tattooed all over her body.

"i, um... future" i said, i didn't know what to say.

"future? please, heres your future... you are on the road to certain destruction a changed name and address will not take away the memories that haunt you, i expect that you'll never be any better, parents gone, friends gone, except for Lucas of course and it is your fault of the school going up right?" i cried. her thoughts were: 'pathetic girl'. i felt hot tears down my face, i didn't like that at all, i thought to my self 'drop dead!' because i could n't say to her because of my uncontrollable sobbing. then she dropped dead.

"oh my god! shes dead" said Lucas, i looked at him stunned,

"it was me, i did it i told her to drop dead and she did" i wailed.

"it could have been anything! heart failure, aneurysm, anything!"

"don't try and make me feel better"

"it was not you!" he said, i read his mind, he knew it was true he just didn't want to believe it.

we ran out of the tent before anyone would notice, i couldn't believe it, i had told someone's brain to stop their heart from beating, shes dead!

i tried to enjoy the rest of the day with my friends.

Jack: the conspiracy theorist

Roxanne: the one who believes that death solves all the problems in the world

Lucy: she's ditzy and has red hair, reminded me of Lucy from I love Lucy

Reece: he's a real wacko, but a good guy.

"OMG! the fortune teller girl just dropped dead!" cried Jack, everyone just stood around her applauding and snickering, she wasn't well loved.

"finally somebody offed her! we got a guardian angel in our midst!" cried Roxy

we left shorty after her burial (don't ask) we hit the road again, with lots of souvinears and CD's to boot! the CD's were from the unknown bands and stuff but sounded good, i was still rattled over killing her but... i kinda helped, people were happy she was dead! strangely enough i felt horrible and disgusted about it, but content with it.

"another grand statement, death answers all problems, she was such a bitch!" Roxy cried excitedly, i was driving now, i figured i needed some reason to stay awake.

till next time. bye

Roads to nowhere

the flight was uneventful, i wanted alcohol, they gave me alcohol cos i used my power on them.

Lucas and i sat in relative silence the whole way there, he tried to strike up a conversation about something that wouldn't remind me of the school or my parents, i can tell, i have mind reading. it was no use.

we landed and we imediatly stopped for a bite. we were lost, lucas always said that he knew how to read maps!

"i thought you knew how to read maps!"

"no i sad that i could figure it out! if i knew where north was then this would be easier!" he cried, he was being shrill, and in a neighborhood like this: thats not cool.

"shut up will ya!?" yelled a disgruntled man from across the street, 'rotten kids' he thought.

"okay so thats west down there" he pointed

"what you pointin' at?!" exclaimed a man behind us

"nothing!" i said bitterly, i tried not to look at him, he sounded angry.

"you were not!" he grabbed out a gun and pointed it at us, i tried to command him but his mind was all cloudy from drugs and alcohol, in the end it was Lucas who disintegrated him.

people started to notice that, we ran as people yelled after us and shots were fired but Lucas had learned a few tricks, he created a barrier that destroyed anything that came near it.

we made it to a main road and we caught up with some hippy albino's on their way to NY, well they weren't at first but now they are.

"why are you guys going to new York?" asked the one that was listening to his IPod VERY loudly, i'm pretty sure that it was The Beatles.

"we plan on going there to start a brand new life" i said loudly so he could hear me

"psychadelicikal!" cried Roxanne, she was driving and made up a lot of words

"yeah, we want the whole shebang! new life, new names, forgetting everything from our pasts!" i said excitedly, i was excited, i'm still sad but happy about the journey, it seems that i'll always be sad but happy ness can seep in, so i'm.... grey.

"hey guys have you seen those conspiracy theories about Vince Lombardi?" asked Jack, he was in the back with us, i tensed and felt happy ness drift away.

"hell yeah! whoever blew that up is a psycho! but OMG, a psychedelic psycho! finally someone is making the grand statement! schools don't get destroyed and they don't crumble because of society, they crumble because they ARE society! groovy!" yelled Roxanne, they all nodded in a agreement and i felt better, maybe they were better off dead, they made a final statement.

you gotta spend money to make money, kill 500 and save 1000, and so many more quotes like that make sense to me now!

i know that it's not our abilities that make us who we are, but our choices, but this time they're intertwined, if i hadn't found my power than i would be dead right? i should make more of these choices, not killing schools but... making a difference, the world could be united by grief, and then they're just united. look at Romeo and Juliet! they're deaths called a truce between their warring families, its as true now as it was 400 years ago!

Everything and nothing

Alabama can be stereotypes for having a bunch of hicks (my town of Renholm especially) but we are smart, well most of us are.

I keep on having the worst dreams about my parents and about the whole school explosion thing, i feel like it's all piling on top of me and if it weren't my idea to get the principal to enter our school in that scholarship contest then this wouldn't have happened at all!

MY FAULT.

I can't seem to get over it, i keep on looking over my shoulder and thinking that maybe the students are happier, i mean i may as well face it, not a single clique at that school could get along, its obvious to me that the only place they'll ever truly get along is in heaven. The high school is hell. HELL.

Maybe they're all better off dead, maybe their was some kinda illness that would have killed them all and they would have died painfully instead of quickly.

i have got to stop thinking this!! i don't sleep anymore, i hardly blink, no speaking and barely eat, i can't even fake a smile.

my aunt wants to take me to a therapist, could help i guess, it can't hurt me anymore than i already am. but i feel realer more aware about what can happen, Lucas understands better than anyone else about it, Mike is shaken up, Annette's worried about us both (she's walking better now, but limping a bit).

i'm not singing anymore, in fact i don't walk around anymore, what's the point? i'll just make another dumb decision that'll cost people their lives.

"How do you feel about the recent occurrences in you life Jane?" asked my therapist, her expression said nothing, so i read her mind 'this poor kid, i can't even imagine what she went through'

i felt this helplessness rise in me, and anger, hatred everything under the sun, except forgiveness.

"i don't need your freakin' pity!!" i screamed, i swung the door open and it just about broke off its hinges. my therapist looked in utter shock.

i walked around for ages, i'm sure that i punched a few walls, i'm not sure. i felt so responsible, i was crying when i got home, i walked up to my room ignoring everything my aunt and Lucas said. i sat down and looked at every poster on my walls, Wicked, Grease, Chicago, Moulin Rouge, Short Stack, Linkin Park and so many others. fakes, fake lives fake stories, happy endings, sad endings but always so contrived. I grabbed the scissors off my desk and sliced and cut every poster into confetti, cutting my hands a lot in the process, i didn't mind, it's a small price to pay.

i knew that somewhere inside of me there was still the Jane who loved musicals and dancing and singing, it made me sick. So sick i through up for most of the night until dinner, i didn't eat.

i couldn't be in this town, people looking at me in pity, i hated it.

i dress in black now, it goes with everything and nothing. like me. I'm a human, completely normal in every way, but i don't fit anywhere in this picture that is the world.

it was midnight, i packed my things and through up because i had let myself fall asleep, and i had one of THOSE dreams, they still made be sick. i climbed out the window, only to be met by Lucas.

"Jane, don't leave, you can get some help, we're here for you" he said soothingly, 'go bcak to bed' i yelled at him telepathically, he turned, then it was like he fought it, he turned back around.

"if you don't want to stay then i don't, i'm coming" he said. i shrugged in a whatever gesture.

We walked to the airport, it was morning when we had finally got there but luckily we had bought the tickets. our airport was small and cheap, i guess thats a plus. it would take us to North Carolina, where we planned to hitch hike to New York.

Explosive Endings

its gone. Vince Lombardi boarding school is in ashes, everyone in it has perished. Kate included. i heard the explosion, it sent shock waves through everyone when we heard. only JD, Andrea, Me, her obnoxious "friends", one of which was real (Lana?) and my roommate are alive, this is horrible!

i braced myself, that piece of paper that she had given me was i my hand, i sat in a church, i wasn't religious but i figured this is as good a time as any to pray right? i opened the piece of paper, my hands shook while tears rolled down my cheeks.

hey if you're reading this than i'm probably dead, i just had to leave this for you:

798969594, call it. if you EVER need help, it'll only work once though so make it important, its a secret iv'e had or a while, i used it while i was in the past, bye.

wow, it's a helpline. nice going away gift i guess, i suppose i'll use it sometime, i gotta go back to Alabama now, i guess its for the best. how do i get over this?

MIA

Its great that Kate woke up! too bad i couldn't ask her what was really going on in her mind, but we had to leave to give her some rest, who knew that being in a coma for 4 days wasn't actually sleep?

we waited outside, we couldn't wait to talk to her! ask her how she was feeling! i knew that it was some kind of mind trap, how she got out of it i'll never know! i heard her thoughts stirring and i was self centered enough to want to see her first so i put a thought in my friends/'people who happen to be here for Kate''s head's so they'll get coffee and went in and saw her by myself.

she was fully dressed in normal clothes when she turned around, she seemed to be shocked then understood how i knew she was awake.

"hey Jane" she said to me, i was going to read her mind to see where she was going, but her thoughts were blocked.

"you should get back to bed they wanna do more tests" i told her

"no, i gotta get to school and stop Kevin from blowing it up" she said nonchalantly, i was confused i knew nothing of this!

"i could help," i said to her

"no, i have to do this alone. plus i want to keep you safe, iv'e seen the future, you've got some stuff to do that i don't need to help you with" she passed me a piece of paper, "only open it if i die, or disappear, or tell you to. got it?"

i nodded, she sped away leaving a mass of destruction in her path.

the others returned,

"where's Kate?" Some girl who i didn't know asked, she was staying close to a scary looking guy with PK and another scary guy who looks like he's gonna kill us all.

"she just, ah stepped out for a smoke" i said lamely.

this was very... okay, weird.

That Listerine Smell

They took Kate to the hospital! i knew that i shouldn't have left! her, she was found by Andrea on floor of the room and she wouldn't wake up, she groaned but that stopped at the ER.

they said that they had no idea whats wrong, they said that she might have swelling and stuff, or an aneurysm or a tumor. they don't know!

she's already flat lined once, i'v'e brought in some CD's for her to listen to, Bon Jovi, Nirvana, The Proclaimers, i tried to get into her mind but somehow things were clouded, almost like her mind wasn't there any more, Andrea, JD, her obnoxious friends and even Mike and Kevin are here with me. Andrea reads allot about this kind of stuff and she thinks that it might be self inflicted, like bulimia or something, but what does she know?

i hate that Listerine smell, i had to smell that the day i went to the hospital to identify my parents' bodies. not a good smell, antiseptic. yuck.

her parents aren't here, i don't know why. Kate Ramone is a nice person, what did she do to deserve this? i tried to read her mind again. she was screaming at the top of her lungs. i didn't want Kate to die, i don't know her that well, but if i lost someone else then... i don't even want to think about it.

Trembling Madness Part 2

i walked through the halls, it was after music class now. I made my way to the boiler room, my life had never been simple but i knew that this trip had to be, wrong. Dead wrong. i was halfway through the halls, when i saw Mike in dire straits.

"you fag! can i really expect that from my team? what the hell is the world coming to?!" one of his teammates screamed, Mike pushed him off of him.

"you cannot be serious! teams support each other" he said

"not when they're off the team" he said, "you looked at me again, and then i'll-" i had taken over him using telepathy, i don't know what came over me, but i was sure that i could influence happiness and make something real, in this case a lie is better than the truth. "i'll do this" he moved for and planted a kiss right on Mike! gasps were heard throughout the hall, and i couldn't seem to get through the wall of people.

i telepathed them all to go away and leave them be. I made my way to the boiler room, suddenly the emo guy ran past me, fear in his eyes and some how there seemed to be blood all over him!

"hey Emo guy! what happened?"

"i-i-i if told you then you'd label me crazy, and call me Kevin" he ran past, i read his mind but his thoughts were racing too fast. i continued my run the boiler room, almost their, but i tripped and twisted my ankle, i hobbled as fast as i could to the boiler room, nothing would stop me!

except for a speedster, named Speed who seemed to be looking for a dealer, i pointed her to Errol Finn. I continued and finally got in.

Kate was trembling on the floor, saying something incomprehensible, i walked over, gently shaking her.

"Kate? wake up! Kate!" i said, it must have been her power and Kevin must have done it. it felt like hours, i'm sure it wasn't that long though. Kate started to stir and she woke up, we talked or rather i talked and she could n't form words. I walked her back to her room, she was unsteady but she made it back. i dropped her off and she told me to go to my room, i reluctantly complied.

i returned to my room, life gave me lemons and i was never good at making lemonade, so all iv' got is lemons. I'm talking to my roommate just boring girl stuff. Lucas called, i told him about Kate, and Mike stopped by, he was happy that it was all out in the open. it's been a big day i'll check back in soon.

Trembling Madness Part 1

i got back in late tonight, tonight, its around 3 i guess, i stuck around at the special screenings a bit longer, i walked through the halls i couldn't wait to just get to bed! but as usual nothing goes my way, i caught myself silently sobbing over my parents, it was their funeral yesterday and i didn't go, even if i was down there i probably wouldn't go but still, a funeral kinda makes it official.

then i started to wonder if i could read peoples dreams, so i let the gate to my powers open and i heard my roommate Nancy dreaming about Short Stack (an Australian band, they were all the rage back home) singing Princess to her while she made out with Chester Bennington from Linkin Park. nothing interesting, its all she thinks about during the day too. i suddenly heard the frantic voice of Kate Ramone, saying something about stopping some guy, for some reason she did seem a bit off to me, like she forgot who she was, i knew that tomorrow i would tell her about my power, i needed someone around. I considered following her but maybe she was just getting up so early in the day to go meet that JD guy she's so into.

i was drifting off to sleep, my eyes were finally coming down when i heard someone scream, i jolted up, a sharp pain in my head showed me that she was trying to control me but failed. i ran down stairs to where i though it had come from, nothing, but then i remembered the boiler room. i ran in, it was locked but i fixed that, i had a bobby pin in my hair, i'm not totally useless!

i ran in, there was the emo/gothic guy from my school lying on the floor, trembling in his sleep, i read his mind, i could hear people voices in there, one of which was Kate's, then i saw Kate on the ground, in the same trembling sleep. i watched them, i didn't know what to do, they were far in the shadows, if it weren't for my mind reading i couldn't see them or hear them. The janitor walked in:

"hey, new girl! you're not supposed to be down here!"

"but i-"

"back to bed, you can fire up you're reefer in the girls toilets" he was scary so i left, and that being scared of janitor thing might have been the reason why i didn't see Kate at our first lesson together: music.

"wheres Kate?" i asked the girl who talks to Kate lots like she's crazy-obsessed with her.

"i don't know, she wasn't at breakfast either, maybe she's sick... and why are you talking to me?"

i walked away, i hated girls who thought everyone was in love with them. i had i wild guess that they were down in the boiler room, i'm posting this when i should be looking up Beethoven and the teacher is headed this way so i better go.

TBC

Here i am

i'm sitting here in my room with my rather pessimistic roommate who actually believes that the world will end in 2012 and seems overly content with it. i met a girl named Kate Ramone today, she seemed nice looked kinda like Michele Pfieffer when she was in Grease 2 so i suppose thats kinda cool i love Grease and Grease 2!

i was bored during music class today, Mr. Cowley seems to ramble on about the littlest things but then again apparently he like to keep guitars safe it seems that last lesson someone dropped one out of the window, he looked like he was looking at Kate when he said that bu tit might have been the girl who was right next to her and wouldn't stop talking to her, she looked like she was obsessed with her.

he didn't show any signs of letting up, in fact the only times when the dude stopped was when he was taking a breath and you could hear noise downstairs from that emo guy from my old school and the Gothic chick (Annie? Andy? Andrea!), so anyways i drowned out all the sounds and let people thoughts wash over me.

they were all thinking about the same basic things:

"this soooooo boring! who cares?"

"maybe he wont noticed if i got up and left for a smoke" and occasionally i came across:

"this floor is so damn thin! maybe this school has termites!! oh god i'm gonna fall through the floor!" that was my roommates thoughts, then i read the static thoughts of Kate Ramone:

"this so boring who cars?! if i wanted to i could go back in time and meet Mozart and kill him so i wouldn't have to sit this!" or something to effect. then suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my head! her thoughts stopped and... ouch! did she have a power? what was she doing to me?!

Now its my free period so im listening to I wanna be Sedated by The Ramones! love them, and just talking with Mike, we plan on sneaking out tonight and going to watch a midnight Screening of The Rocky Horror Picture Show, then Shock Treatment.

i love them, musicals... greatest invention since... The phone!

I cant get the whole Kate thing out of my head, it seems strange sure, but i think i want to tell her about my power! it's clear to me that she has one too, since Lucas isn't here anymore i think i need to talk to someone

I got it!!!!!

I got it! the scholorship to Vince Lombardi! i got it! Missy Lions is sooooo embarrassed!

i'm already packing my bags, Lucas is sad to see me go, and but Mike got a football scholarship, so he's going too, my school maybe small but we have the best of the best!

its more than likely that Annette would have gotten the gymnastics scholarship too, but some girl from Arkansas got it instead.

i ate with Lucas and Mike, Annette was feeling down about the whole gymnastics thing, so she was sitting alone for a bit. i saw Thomas Burbury scooping slop on to our trays, it was definatly the whole "rotting maggots of death" line that got him in THAT job, usually it was just detention.

i sat there and also looked over at the artist kid over on the other end of school, he was (and i don't say this about many people) the worst kind of person, he has no remorse and if he had the chance he'd kill someone, anyways no matter how creepily attractive he is i cant excuse the fact that he is clinically insane, he just has not been caught yet, only a handful of people no the dudes name!

iv'e heard different names for him and i'm not sure which one is real, but that doesn't matter.

i cant wait to go there, i'll keep in contact with Annette and Lucas is staying with aunt Amelia (as was the agreement) so thats good.

next post i will be in my room at Vince Lombardi!

School

I never realized the truth about High school until i saw the way people stared at you or the way they talked behind your back, thinking you can't hear them. That was how i felt whn i walked through those halls, they looked at me with pity, some came up to ask if i was okay and others kept their distance, i didn't mind.

i was feeling better, a bit, Lucas was there for me, as were Mike and Annette, i would be okay i suppose. i had music, i still wanted that scholarship to Vince Lombardi, although i don't know why, maybe just to make them proud... i sat down and played the piano during my free period, i sat there and played For Good from Wicked. i sang it practically flawlessly, i never sang it out of tune, no matter how much sadness i felt i would never sing out of key.

My Aunt Amelia was a nice enough person, she seemed to care for me and even let Lucas stay for a while, but the second he wanted to or the second he turned 18 (which she undoubtedly preferred) he was to leave, we agreed. i was watching Friends it always cheered me up, i was halfway through The One in Vegas, and i was laughing, at Ross and Rachel, best couple ever! when i thought about my power, i turned off the tv and sat and thought about it, did my bio parents have powers too? was i part of some big plan? were the answers right under my nose? i'll never know i suppose.

it was an assembly in the quadrangle, as usual the principal would hand out some certificates from contests that most of us had never heard of, Lucas whispered to me:

"this is so boring, i mean i don't care what the class president has to say? why do we even have a class president?"

i laughed, and said: "do you wanna have some fun?"

"what?" he asked, i concentrated hard, the class president (Thomas Burbury), was about to make his speech, i concentrated hard to make him say exactly what i wanted.

"rotting maggots of death" he said 'there we go' i thought "i know that i won't be up here again, especially after this, i just wanted to say that Ms. Lamon has had more plastic surgery then Michael Jackson... and then some, Josh Davis has pimples all over his you know what, and i know cos i look at him all the time in the lockers, Tasha Sullivan stuffs her bra and for the record i don't do anything as class president and i take bribes from the teachers and i have had the teachers try to buy drugs from Lionel Branson, yeah we all know Lionel!!! and if it weren't for my titanium legs i'd kick all of your asses cos you are all shallow, superficial and losers!!!"

Lucas and i clapped, we seemed to be the only one who were, we cheered and then Tom got outta his trance and realized what he was saying, needless to say we didn't see him for the next week.

Never coming home

it has been a day since Lucas came to stay with me, he had a job and i had to spend the whole day out with my friends Mike and Annette, i had to find some way to break the news to them without telling them exactly why he was staying with me

"guys i have something to tell you" i said, this cant be that hard, i thought to myself, you just string some words together, "i-" this was hard! it wasn't saying it, it was how they would react and that awkward silence that would follow. "i don't know how to tell you this but-um-"

"oh my god!" Cried Annette

"are like-" she lowered her voice: "pregnant?"

"what? no!!!!"

"thank god!" said Mike

"well heres the thing, um- you know Lucas Richards?"

Annette twitched at the name, this was gonna be hard, "yeah?"

"well he had nowhere else to go and, well he's staying with me" i said, Annette had a look of shock on her face, and Mike had a look of worry, i cant tell if it was for Annette or me, Lucas was by many peoples definitions- troubled.

"it's just that i wanted to help and i kinda owed him one"

"why? what could possibly owe that emo?"

"he, well..." i couldn't tell them what happened, "he defied some odds for me" translated to: he used powers that odds are he was lucky to have. they knew i'd say nothing else on the subject, i abruptly left them to get over their shock.

"hey how'd it go?" Lucas asked, he was sitting their watching TV in some jeans and a sweatshirt, but in all honesty- he looked cute.

"they took it like i expected, they just need some time is all"

"yeah, it cant be that bad for them to hear that, its not like we're dating or anything" awkward silence.

we went out for lunch, just some KFC, nothing fancy, i grabbed the tray and sat it down on a table, there was a note on the tray, "i know your secret". i felt this growing fear in my stomach, someone knew? who? i read minds all over, but no-one seemed to be thinking about anything i cared about. it might have just been a prank, i looked closely at the handwriting, i grabbed the paper it felt hot, like searing hot!

"it's probably nothing" Lucas reassured me after much thought.

"maybe" i said. i had some homework to do, we went home, Lucas was good at Science so he helped me, then he went out to get some stuff for dinner he wanted to cook tonight to show how grateful he was to me.

Lucas had just gotten home when i received the call

"hello are you Jane Robertson?" an unfamiliar man asked on the phone

"yes"

"i don't know how to say this but... your parents were in a car accident, they didn't make it. i'm sorry" i dropped the phone, my world had started to spin, i felt the tears streaming down my face and my knees buckling, i know that Lucas comforted me, he hugged me and held me and just let me cry, i must have fallen asleep, i woke up the next morning in my bed, Lucas had carried me there. i walked down the stairs.

"morning" i said, he hugged me he could see the tears in my eyes, you'd think i'd be all cried out but no. i sat down and barely ate, i stayed home from school and Lucas took a sick day at work, we sat around, we didn't say much, what can you say?

i tried not to look in their room, it did not help my cause. a social worker came over and told me that my aunt Lena was going to be my guardian, and she wouldn't arrive for another 2 days, because she's all the way in Greece. Lucas sat with me, Annette and Mike came over too, they'd seen it on the news.

i went to bed and skipped another day of school, i despise the fact that i have so much power over peoples thoughts and emotions but none over fate. i'll have to work on that.