One month later

it has been one whole month since my last post, we took the advice of Eric Braddock, an activist for EHRM, (Extraordinary human rights movement), he said that specials would do well to lay low for a month.

i have been incredibly out of it the last few days, daydreaming, i suppose it guilt. Guilt over Claire Bennet, what with killing her and all. Eric and i are now going out, and i have met some of the employees of specials for hire at the bar. one of whom has teleported in my old friends Annette and Mike, i needed them, they would understand right? about why i had to leave and stuff, i dont know, but now they're staying with us.

"who's the guy next door?" Annette asked this morning, she was making waffles, mmmm.
"which one?" i asked her
"the cross dresser, he's really funny i think i'll invite him over for dinner tonight, what do you think?"
"he and Lucy haven't really get along sinse she stole his diamond studded boots" Annette nodded and Mike asked me if Tyler Sutton , the man whore next door was seeing anyone, i said no and i haven't seen Mike all day.
Life is normal, ocassionally their are huge riots downstairs where all these "witch" hunters are trying to search the building, this was getting out of hand.
Lucas was out at night more and more, we have learned the name of the girl who saved us at that building, where i had to kill Claire Bennet, her name was Cleo. Cleo Trellis, she's disapeared off the face of the Earth, hiding? dead? we don't really know.
i have called up a guy called Tempest he says he'll come to NY as soon as he can, what with the specails hunting it could be a while, i hope he gets here soon, my friends and i are tired of looking over our shoulders and hope he can help.

HIre

has anyone here ever heard of specials for hire? well at La Vie Boheme we have that, they seem to trust me here so they let me in on the code for a special for hire: "I'm Looking for Pierre Renoir" yo which i say: "he's downstairs, the password is 'i hate Picasso', go down in 5" is what i say to that person.

i don't know what goes on down there but thats it.

The World was spinning

i haven't posted for a bit for the obvious reason that i have no time, between the bar and my birthday bash, oh and my freaky neighbors coming in out of the halls at any ungodly hour in the morning!

well i was watching TV today, and what should come on but a bunch of people storming through the west side looking for specials to kill or glorify or something, this was already getting out of hand, Claire Bennet i am going to kill you!!!!!!!!

i flicked over the channel to find my aunt on there having an interview about me and how iv'e been kidnapped and she reckons i'm dead she showed a note, i never left a note, she said it was the kidnappers calling card, lol, someones playing a prank!

i sat around there watching, then suddenly i felt this stinging in my neck, a shock and it went black.

i woke up and my head was spinning, the room was dark and had a dampness i the air, it was cold, i was shivering.

"what are we sposed to do about her?" said a voice, a voice i had never heard before but her tone was so familiar.

"how the hell should i know? you're the Tavara, what do we do Iz?" said a husky sounding man, probably in his forties or fifties, the girl sounded early to mid twenties, i tried to read their minds, and make them let me go but my power was weakened, then i became fully aware of the IV drip in my arm, i could feel it all now! pain was shooting through my head and i was lying on a cold metal table, i felt my arms heat up in rage, maybe i was kidnapped and all this was just a dream? no! it couldn't have been! my sight became clearer now, a man was wearing glasses, horn rimmed, i had an uncle who wore similar ones, only they were some sickly shade of green.

"maybe we could employ her?" suggested 'Iz', the man (lets called him HRG, for his Horn Rimmed Glasses)

"terrible idea, too wild, uncontrollable, her psych profile says that she would have first instincts to kill and run, we can't have that now that the world knows" he said wisely, i don't like this guy, he acts all Yoda like.

"what about her friend?" she said hopefully.

"no way in hell, Lucas is too loyal to her" he stated, "plus what if he corrupted our healers? we've already had a lot escape, word on the street is that one even got coerced into bringing back Elle Bishop"

"word of mouth" Iz said, "Angela would have told us"

"Angela might not have known"

"Angela knows everything"

"look, we keep her under sedation, for a while and we release Lucas with a cleaned memory, no-one will find her"

i wasn't sure but Iz was sounding kind of desperate to have me on the team, for whatever reason. i tried my powers again, this time i got it, i locked onto HRG, he went over and unlocked me, i then proceeded to grab his gun and point it at Iz.

"i'm a Tavara" she shrugged, he hand flicked and the gun smashed as though it were mere ice.

"oh crap" i said, i threw one of the needles they had in my head (i guess it to measure something) at her, she stopped it mid air and let it drop to the ground.

"here's the key card and password to room 4, level 5" she handed me a piece of paper and the card. "Claire Bennet is in there, i want you to go in there and shut her brain down"

"kill her?"

"no, just make it so she- yeah kill her, make her brain dead would be a bit more accurate though"

"i don't think i should-"

"the more you think the less you do" she said hastily, "no knock me out"

"with what?"

"the gun"

"you smashed the-" the gun reformed and she TKed it to my hand.

"happy?" i hit her on the head and ran for the door.

it was a shorter distance than i thought to level five, i was only on level 4. i moved to room 4, i wanted to kill Claire Bennet but i knew that she couldn't die, and i knew that this might be the only way for me to get on these peoples good side.

i swiped the card in put the code: 3691

"dad?" said the blond fragile girl who sat on a bed in the corner playing a game on a DS.

"nope" i said, i walked in, my eyes narrowed at her, she was the cause of all this!

"who are you?"

"it might sound clich'ed but its true" i paused for dramatic effect "i'm your worst nightmare"

"you're not Jack Nicholson" she said, she seemed like she was trying to use humor to get me to like her. i wasn't amused.

"then i'm your second worst nightmare" i said

"you don't look like that creep kid from-"

"i'm a nightmare!" and at that i used my power, her eyes rolled back in her head and she fell back onto the bed, she went 3 shades paler and i knew my work had been done.

i ran out, only to pass a window, a person, he was a goo looking guy, scary eye brows, like giant black caterpillars chasing each other,he looked at me menacingly, he had a shock thing around his neck, wrists and ankles, he was very dangerous, i like him. i used the key card to open it, i guess it a one size fits all kinda place here, the code was the same too.

"thanks" he said, "but don't expect me to owe you one, then he tried to slice my head open, but my mind control thing was bit too strong for him and i sent him off to kill Claire Bennet's body, is it wrong that i found that guy incredibly sexy?

then i noticed Lucas running down the hall with a girl who looked kind of like Iz but not quite, kinda like how that Chick from Bones looks like Zooey Deschanel (cos they're sisters) but you can tell them apart, Iz and this girl are like that.

the girl started to fly and picked up Lucas and me on the way, we shot through a wall (i assume we phased) and we flew over the city, she dropped me and him off at our apt and she dissapeared into thin air.

what a nice day.

sorry the post was so long, lots happened today

Steps up and New people

James (Lucas), Jenna (Lucy) and Anya (which is me, Jane) walked through the streets of one of the greatest cities in the world. it was a great place! we decided that our best bet was to rent an apartment together, we came across a building that had a reasonable price, it was dingy and looked like a bomb went off in it but i reckon its livable. the first thing the guy asked was if we had jobs, we all said yes, now we need jobs.

Lucas decided that he wanted to do something good for the streets of NY (good luck!) so he is now working at a cleaning place, they clean up streets and sidewalks, he disintegrates the rubbish, i helped him get the job (since he has no qualifications)

Lucy's invisibility wont really come in handy as a pizza deliverer but its still a good job,.

I'm a bartender, i know i'm underage but telepathy works wonders! plus i'll be 18 in a week.

since the jobs are worked out we decided that it was time to get to know the city, and see all the sights, this place is great! and iv'e been feeling better! its so weird! i still wake with a jolt of fear sometimes in the night but i'm doing better maybe its just one of those stages of grief things, or maybe it's just the excitement of NY! at the bar i work at (it's a bohemian influenced bar called La Vie Boheme) its especially exciting, so many cool people and music!

i love this city! its a step up (A LOT OF STEPS UP) from Renholm, Alabama, i sing at the bar from time to time, dance a bit, but my passion isn't there. you know how you lose direction when something really bad happens? even if its just little? although by no means were the things that happened 'little' they were big! still dress in black attire, still cut my arm from time to time (it's get less often now) and from time to time a cry in my sleep (less often now).

i can't wait until my new life really gets rolling! there's a cute guy across the hall, his name is Eric Braddock, he's a college student, he goes to NYU, he wants to be Video game developer, he's cute in that nerdish way, blonde hair, do i detect a slight southern accent?! he' is so funny! and a bit goth, a real catch!

"i just moved here about a month ago, got... kicked outta the place i was staying at, i guess it's okay with me though, i kinda got sick of them all calling me 'Dig', gets on ya nerves, plus i got into college, so i woulda left anyways" he said to me just yesterday.

i have another neighbor, she lives with like 4 other people! this is them (from what i understand)

-Tasha Harris, is a real weird one but has good direction and makes snap assumptions, she also loves getting her way. selfish. she's an artist

-Krystal Docking, AKA: KD, very leader type, and a thorough bitch, and speaks in a very bitchy monotone.

-Tyler Sutton is this Bi sexual guy who lives there, judging by his thoughts and where he goes (which coincidentally is usually the bar i work at) he is a well paid man whore.

-Luke Skinner, a cross dresser who seems to be scared of nothing... Except bee's. he is an out of work actor, but for a part time job he delivers papers or something.

- Ashley Hannigan. i don't see much of her i think she's an intern at a hospital or something similar. I think she's crazy, she seems to think that she was abducted by aliens.

well thats the only neighbors i know, there's a whole hall full of them but those are the 6 i know. i think that they're all weird (the ones i don't know yet) , and since they're my neighbor's i thought it best to introduce them now, just in case they become it bit more tied into my life.

out of character

this is the actual poster of this blog (i'm outta character): ARJ (my initials), just a typical teenage girl who likes writing fanfiction! this blog and villains view are all fanfiction for Heroes the TV show! anyone who thinks that i actually believe this are... i don't know but they're wrong.

that is the last time i'll be out of character

Mistakes

a lot of people make mistakes, and sometimes they ultimately benefit you, or the person you unintentionally victimized. Sometimes you make one mistake, and it made such a great impact on people that you continued to do it (whether you wanted to or not) but what happens when the formula that worked so well suddenly gets disrupted? What happens when you're mistakes finally get you? and what will happen when you get caught?

Lucas, Elle, Kristen and i ran through thick bushes while we braved a steep hill, we ran to catch up with my hippy friends, their com-bi van usually took ten minutes to start but we were still losing time. as we scrambled up the hill we were stopped when Lucy tackled me to the ground, he eyes with fear and dread in them.

"the left!" she cried

"what do you mean?" i asked her

"Roxy drove off without me, she says that i need to stop you" she explained, "stop you from what?"

"i-" i had to tell her, i could convince her to leave but i was so sick of people not knowing what i'd done and how I'M helping, "the explosions are all me! i killed the fortune teller and its my fault that that building smashed!" i cried

"you? you just ruined everything! people can easily say that Claire Bennet was just a good trickster or it's just a publicity stunt for the Sullivan bros. carnies but a building smashing? what if the news got a hold of the footage? what if people started hunting?!"

"it's not completely my fault!" i said desperately, "i don't even know what those people were doing there"

"i can explain that" piped up Kristen, "we were there under sedation after The Company was destroyed, they deemed us too dangerous and out of control to be let into the world so Angela Petrelli took us all there she called in a favor with the guy who owned it" concluded Kristen.

"how do you know about powers?" Lucas asked Lucy

"i have one" she said, suddenly a large portion of herself disappeared. invisibility.

"pretty nifty" she said with a laugh. Elle sparked up her hands with a mad glint in her eye.

"if we don't go some where right now i swear to god i'll set this whole place on fire!"

"no you wont Eliza" Kristen stated in the way younger sisters talked to older siblings when they didn't get their way, Kristen absorbed Elle's electricity, and then sparked her nose.

"ow!" Elle cried.

"shut up!" Lucas yelled, "people are gonna be after us, people will know our faces and that means we have to run"

"let's not get a head of of ourselves! we could be just fine" i said, the nodded but still looked unsure.

"i'll get us on a plane to new york okay?" i said.

"i'm not a good flyer" Elle said

"how bad?"

"like i get anxious and then Electricity kinda... leaks out"

"then you'l lhave to stay" i said, "no-one will recognize you, and even if they do you can just kill them" she laughed a it.

"then i'll stay too" said Kristen.

"fine"

So me, Lucy and Lucas got on the plane to new york, we didn't even have to pay! (you know how it is with telepathy!)

Raves and BOOM

We walked around Arlington U, everybody was talking about Claire Bennet, i guess the way to get noticed in this college is by jumping off of high places.

"blah blah blah" i said, i was wearing my black attire, but i'm not a total goth, it's a hot day so i'm wearing short shorts (black) a Ramones T-shirt (black) that says Gabba Gabba hey!

i walked around, a blonde and two brunettes walked past (thinking about Claire) they were worried about her, everyone else was gossiping about it and they were worried! must have been friends.

"rave starts tonight" says Lucy. i nodded and dragged Lucas all over campus (i was hungry).

the rave started at the animal testing place. we yelled chants picket signs, and screamed at people, a few fights but nothing major. The n a guard came out, i really wanted to help these people so i convinced the guard (telepathicaly) to let us in.

we let the animals run free and knocked out the guards, then a guy came running dow the hall, bronzed over eyes, he made a mad grab for me he was after me! but why? everyone else was out now and Lucas was waiting for me anxiously outside, as a i began to run for the entrance i saw it close, he shot what felt like an invisible bullet at me it scrapped my arm, i couldn't override whatever was controlling his mind, he was still after me i ran up stairs, jumped the railing and headed downstairs.

i ran through the dark halls, i opened my phone up, light shone through as my eyes widened i heard his heavy footsteps. their i saw it, a bunch of people were on a table all of them were being sedated, i pulled out their sedation things, i had to get them out as they came round a girl of about 25,26 (she looked younger but i could tell she was around that) asked me:

"where the hell were you 1 year ago?!" she leaped off the table and i steadied her, she shot a huge storm of electricty and the room lit up and the man was burned to a crisp, then Lucas fell through the roof.

"Lucas!" i cried, the blond girl (i'm just gonna call her Blondie) scowled at us, he thoughts were a bit paranoia filled but whatever.

another came to, she looked exactly like Blondie!

"thank you so much!" she cried, i liked her better than Blondie, "Elle did you say thank you?!"

"they were late" her sister explained.

"i'm Kristen, friends can call me Kris or Kristie"

"hi Kristen" i said. she looked a bit taken a back but that didn't matter, other's were coming to now.

"we gotta go, but then-

BANG! a huge wave of flames spread through the room, and then followed by water, then acid, Lucas made a hole in the wall so we could get out, i grabbed out a gun i had gotten (don't ask how i got it, all will be explained someday) and shot at the guy who was giving off radiation, i missed him and it got him in the arm, he went berserk! everyone ran as fast as they could and i tried to calm him, i couldn't be responsible for more deaths, then Lucas disintegrated him! he looked torn up about doing so but he did it and that was good of him.

"thanks" i said

"don't thank me yet" he said, then the water guy froze the entire place he looked out of control, before we could do anything the entire place shattered, and news camera's were everywhere, i made them forget and Lucas destroyed their camera but i couldn't make one of them forget, he had bronze eyes too, and he was holing a camera, what was worse was before we could blink, he was gone.

Roxy's Revelation

i woke Lucas up telepathically, he needed to know that the world knew about powers.

"that is dumbest girl in the world! blondes say they want to be treated equally but this blond is like the epitome of-"

"use another big word and i'll cut you" i said.

"we need to diffuse this" Lucas' face shone with worry, the sun had just began to rise he looked tired as hell, "any idea's?"

"i could kill her" i said, it just slipped out, im 80% sure it was jokingly though. he glared at me shocked.

"that was a joke" i said.

"better be" he said, i heard Roxanne stirring, before i could send her back to sleep she asked me something.

"how long have you had a power?"

"i-i-i" i stuttered, i had no idea she knew! how? "i don't know what you're talking about" i said.

"yes you do, i heard you wake him up tell him about powers being discovered, and then your incessant ramblings followed" she said, "sorry, but i had to use a big word, i'll cut myself later" she said sarcastically.

"do you have a power?" i asked her.

"used to, but then i got wind of Claire Bennet's 'attempt' as she so delicately put it, so i knew that people would be after us soon enough, and even if they weren't imagine societies prejudices against us! The whole reason i suggested that we stop over at the New Ages festival is so i could meet up with a Payed Aurris, which is an Aurris who is payed for taking people's powers" she explained.

"what power did you have?" i asked her, she grabbed out her ipod and showed us a video.

"okay, i'm only gonna do this once so hold that camera steady" said a younger version of Roxy.

her hands flew to her sides and ground rose above her and twisted in the air, old house's sunk through the ground and as more people walked by and watched the more who were killed, she showed no remorse, she's a murderer but it was either kill them or be killed.

"The names Roxanne Harper and i just killed a whole bunch of people, 128 to be exact. Reece you better have held that freakin camera steady, now off!" the camera fumbled but turned off.

"earth?"

"i'm a new agey hippy would'ya spect?" she asked, "for me to be nucular?"

"are the others powered too?"

"god no! Reece doesn't even know about my powers anymore, i had a friend take away his memories while building 26 was operating, i couldn't take risks"

"what was building 26?" I asked, Lucas nodded he wanted to know too.

"doesn't matter now" she said solemnly.

we were all awake now, Lucy was driving, we would be at Arlington U in about an hour, we'd convinced Roxy to keep our secret (she didn't need any persuasion).

"hey Ja-Anya, can you pass over a soda?" asked Lucas, we were trying to get used to our new names.

"yeah sure James" i said. my ipod in my ears blaring some heavy metal i'd got off Jack's computer, it was some thing by a band called Warlords, they were pretty good!

we stopped over at a little diner for a bite to eat, i really liked their fries. it was uneventful, a guy did come in intent on robbing it, but i sent him on his way before he could say a word.

my next post will be at the rave in Arlington.

Finding Out and Dying inside

We've just left Danville here Virginia, we plan on stopping over at Arlington for this huge rave about animal rights, that sounds cool.

iv'e been awake for 5 days, i can't sleep, i'm hyped up on coffee, while everyone's asleep i silently sob, the thoughts of everything creep up on me sometimes, Lucas is still in shock over the whole me killing the fortune lady, he tried to stay up with me but i got him to just go to sleep, i'm driving still, i convince myself to stay awake, my subconscious tempts me into the darkness of my dreams but i won't follow. too painful.

iv'e come up with a system, if i fall asleep even for a second i cut my arm, the pain keeps me awake, proves i'm alive and can feel.

against my better judgment, Defying Gravity entered my mind and i hummed the tune quietly. i hated my life but i couldn't bare it if i went back home, why do i continue to call it home?

my new name is Anya, Anya Stevens. it's not fancy but it works, Lucas has taken the name James Valley, again, not flashy.

i have large dark circle under my eyes but i don't care, i don't have the strength to care.

our next switch is in an hour, the roads are clear and iv'e always been good at multi tasking, hence the blogging and driving simultaneously.

when we get to Arlington we plan on going to that rave and stopping animal testing, but i'll watch out for the- omg!

i just saw this video! omg! a girl just jumped off a sixty foot ferris wheel!? how did i not- oh yeah, i haven't really been looking at the latest news, i sent the vid out to to everyone on my friends list, i had to, i loved to gossip.

oh yeah, Kate Ramone was on that list, she'll never see it, i bet she would have gotten a kick out of this. so sad.

New Ages

Sorry i haven't posted for a while, its been wild!

I let my new hippy friends stop off at a secret festival held out in the middle of nowhere: New Ages.

The music was the kind i had never heard before, unknowns i guess, singing about final statements, like the kind we talked about in the car last post.

i looked through the sea of people, some seemed to be dressed like they belonged at Woodstock! others looked like they were in the live aid concerts back 85'! all these people loved the past so much and saw so profoundly, it was so strange! but cool, Lucas looked bewildered and unsure about this place, but so was i.

"this place has some of the greatest music ever AND most of them live around here in trailers! nowhere else to go" said Jack, i nodded but i was off to see the future in a nearby tent.

Lucas had followed me to make sure i don't get into any trouble.

"Ah, Jane, what brings you in here?" asked a woman with flames tattooed all over her body.

"i, um... future" i said, i didn't know what to say.

"future? please, heres your future... you are on the road to certain destruction a changed name and address will not take away the memories that haunt you, i expect that you'll never be any better, parents gone, friends gone, except for Lucas of course and it is your fault of the school going up right?" i cried. her thoughts were: 'pathetic girl'. i felt hot tears down my face, i didn't like that at all, i thought to my self 'drop dead!' because i could n't say to her because of my uncontrollable sobbing. then she dropped dead.

"oh my god! shes dead" said Lucas, i looked at him stunned,

"it was me, i did it i told her to drop dead and she did" i wailed.

"it could have been anything! heart failure, aneurysm, anything!"

"don't try and make me feel better"

"it was not you!" he said, i read his mind, he knew it was true he just didn't want to believe it.

we ran out of the tent before anyone would notice, i couldn't believe it, i had told someone's brain to stop their heart from beating, shes dead!

i tried to enjoy the rest of the day with my friends.

Jack: the conspiracy theorist

Roxanne: the one who believes that death solves all the problems in the world

Lucy: she's ditzy and has red hair, reminded me of Lucy from I love Lucy

Reece: he's a real wacko, but a good guy.

"OMG! the fortune teller girl just dropped dead!" cried Jack, everyone just stood around her applauding and snickering, she wasn't well loved.

"finally somebody offed her! we got a guardian angel in our midst!" cried Roxy

we left shorty after her burial (don't ask) we hit the road again, with lots of souvinears and CD's to boot! the CD's were from the unknown bands and stuff but sounded good, i was still rattled over killing her but... i kinda helped, people were happy she was dead! strangely enough i felt horrible and disgusted about it, but content with it.

"another grand statement, death answers all problems, she was such a bitch!" Roxy cried excitedly, i was driving now, i figured i needed some reason to stay awake.

till next time. bye

Roads to nowhere

the flight was uneventful, i wanted alcohol, they gave me alcohol cos i used my power on them.

Lucas and i sat in relative silence the whole way there, he tried to strike up a conversation about something that wouldn't remind me of the school or my parents, i can tell, i have mind reading. it was no use.

we landed and we imediatly stopped for a bite. we were lost, lucas always said that he knew how to read maps!

"i thought you knew how to read maps!"

"no i sad that i could figure it out! if i knew where north was then this would be easier!" he cried, he was being shrill, and in a neighborhood like this: thats not cool.

"shut up will ya!?" yelled a disgruntled man from across the street, 'rotten kids' he thought.

"okay so thats west down there" he pointed

"what you pointin' at?!" exclaimed a man behind us

"nothing!" i said bitterly, i tried not to look at him, he sounded angry.

"you were not!" he grabbed out a gun and pointed it at us, i tried to command him but his mind was all cloudy from drugs and alcohol, in the end it was Lucas who disintegrated him.

people started to notice that, we ran as people yelled after us and shots were fired but Lucas had learned a few tricks, he created a barrier that destroyed anything that came near it.

we made it to a main road and we caught up with some hippy albino's on their way to NY, well they weren't at first but now they are.

"why are you guys going to new York?" asked the one that was listening to his IPod VERY loudly, i'm pretty sure that it was The Beatles.

"we plan on going there to start a brand new life" i said loudly so he could hear me

"psychadelicikal!" cried Roxanne, she was driving and made up a lot of words

"yeah, we want the whole shebang! new life, new names, forgetting everything from our pasts!" i said excitedly, i was excited, i'm still sad but happy about the journey, it seems that i'll always be sad but happy ness can seep in, so i'm.... grey.

"hey guys have you seen those conspiracy theories about Vince Lombardi?" asked Jack, he was in the back with us, i tensed and felt happy ness drift away.

"hell yeah! whoever blew that up is a psycho! but OMG, a psychedelic psycho! finally someone is making the grand statement! schools don't get destroyed and they don't crumble because of society, they crumble because they ARE society! groovy!" yelled Roxanne, they all nodded in a agreement and i felt better, maybe they were better off dead, they made a final statement.

you gotta spend money to make money, kill 500 and save 1000, and so many more quotes like that make sense to me now!

i know that it's not our abilities that make us who we are, but our choices, but this time they're intertwined, if i hadn't found my power than i would be dead right? i should make more of these choices, not killing schools but... making a difference, the world could be united by grief, and then they're just united. look at Romeo and Juliet! they're deaths called a truce between their warring families, its as true now as it was 400 years ago!

Everything and nothing

Alabama can be stereotypes for having a bunch of hicks (my town of Renholm especially) but we are smart, well most of us are.

I keep on having the worst dreams about my parents and about the whole school explosion thing, i feel like it's all piling on top of me and if it weren't my idea to get the principal to enter our school in that scholarship contest then this wouldn't have happened at all!

MY FAULT.

I can't seem to get over it, i keep on looking over my shoulder and thinking that maybe the students are happier, i mean i may as well face it, not a single clique at that school could get along, its obvious to me that the only place they'll ever truly get along is in heaven. The high school is hell. HELL.

Maybe they're all better off dead, maybe their was some kinda illness that would have killed them all and they would have died painfully instead of quickly.

i have got to stop thinking this!! i don't sleep anymore, i hardly blink, no speaking and barely eat, i can't even fake a smile.

my aunt wants to take me to a therapist, could help i guess, it can't hurt me anymore than i already am. but i feel realer more aware about what can happen, Lucas understands better than anyone else about it, Mike is shaken up, Annette's worried about us both (she's walking better now, but limping a bit).

i'm not singing anymore, in fact i don't walk around anymore, what's the point? i'll just make another dumb decision that'll cost people their lives.

"How do you feel about the recent occurrences in you life Jane?" asked my therapist, her expression said nothing, so i read her mind 'this poor kid, i can't even imagine what she went through'

i felt this helplessness rise in me, and anger, hatred everything under the sun, except forgiveness.

"i don't need your freakin' pity!!" i screamed, i swung the door open and it just about broke off its hinges. my therapist looked in utter shock.

i walked around for ages, i'm sure that i punched a few walls, i'm not sure. i felt so responsible, i was crying when i got home, i walked up to my room ignoring everything my aunt and Lucas said. i sat down and looked at every poster on my walls, Wicked, Grease, Chicago, Moulin Rouge, Short Stack, Linkin Park and so many others. fakes, fake lives fake stories, happy endings, sad endings but always so contrived. I grabbed the scissors off my desk and sliced and cut every poster into confetti, cutting my hands a lot in the process, i didn't mind, it's a small price to pay.

i knew that somewhere inside of me there was still the Jane who loved musicals and dancing and singing, it made me sick. So sick i through up for most of the night until dinner, i didn't eat.

i couldn't be in this town, people looking at me in pity, i hated it.

i dress in black now, it goes with everything and nothing. like me. I'm a human, completely normal in every way, but i don't fit anywhere in this picture that is the world.

it was midnight, i packed my things and through up because i had let myself fall asleep, and i had one of THOSE dreams, they still made be sick. i climbed out the window, only to be met by Lucas.

"Jane, don't leave, you can get some help, we're here for you" he said soothingly, 'go bcak to bed' i yelled at him telepathically, he turned, then it was like he fought it, he turned back around.

"if you don't want to stay then i don't, i'm coming" he said. i shrugged in a whatever gesture.

We walked to the airport, it was morning when we had finally got there but luckily we had bought the tickets. our airport was small and cheap, i guess thats a plus. it would take us to North Carolina, where we planned to hitch hike to New York.

Explosive Endings

its gone. Vince Lombardi boarding school is in ashes, everyone in it has perished. Kate included. i heard the explosion, it sent shock waves through everyone when we heard. only JD, Andrea, Me, her obnoxious "friends", one of which was real (Lana?) and my roommate are alive, this is horrible!

i braced myself, that piece of paper that she had given me was i my hand, i sat in a church, i wasn't religious but i figured this is as good a time as any to pray right? i opened the piece of paper, my hands shook while tears rolled down my cheeks.

hey if you're reading this than i'm probably dead, i just had to leave this for you:

798969594, call it. if you EVER need help, it'll only work once though so make it important, its a secret iv'e had or a while, i used it while i was in the past, bye.

wow, it's a helpline. nice going away gift i guess, i suppose i'll use it sometime, i gotta go back to Alabama now, i guess its for the best. how do i get over this?

MIA

Its great that Kate woke up! too bad i couldn't ask her what was really going on in her mind, but we had to leave to give her some rest, who knew that being in a coma for 4 days wasn't actually sleep?

we waited outside, we couldn't wait to talk to her! ask her how she was feeling! i knew that it was some kind of mind trap, how she got out of it i'll never know! i heard her thoughts stirring and i was self centered enough to want to see her first so i put a thought in my friends/'people who happen to be here for Kate''s head's so they'll get coffee and went in and saw her by myself.

she was fully dressed in normal clothes when she turned around, she seemed to be shocked then understood how i knew she was awake.

"hey Jane" she said to me, i was going to read her mind to see where she was going, but her thoughts were blocked.

"you should get back to bed they wanna do more tests" i told her

"no, i gotta get to school and stop Kevin from blowing it up" she said nonchalantly, i was confused i knew nothing of this!

"i could help," i said to her

"no, i have to do this alone. plus i want to keep you safe, iv'e seen the future, you've got some stuff to do that i don't need to help you with" she passed me a piece of paper, "only open it if i die, or disappear, or tell you to. got it?"

i nodded, she sped away leaving a mass of destruction in her path.

the others returned,

"where's Kate?" Some girl who i didn't know asked, she was staying close to a scary looking guy with PK and another scary guy who looks like he's gonna kill us all.

"she just, ah stepped out for a smoke" i said lamely.

this was very... okay, weird.

That Listerine Smell

They took Kate to the hospital! i knew that i shouldn't have left! her, she was found by Andrea on floor of the room and she wouldn't wake up, she groaned but that stopped at the ER.

they said that they had no idea whats wrong, they said that she might have swelling and stuff, or an aneurysm or a tumor. they don't know!

she's already flat lined once, i'v'e brought in some CD's for her to listen to, Bon Jovi, Nirvana, The Proclaimers, i tried to get into her mind but somehow things were clouded, almost like her mind wasn't there any more, Andrea, JD, her obnoxious friends and even Mike and Kevin are here with me. Andrea reads allot about this kind of stuff and she thinks that it might be self inflicted, like bulimia or something, but what does she know?

i hate that Listerine smell, i had to smell that the day i went to the hospital to identify my parents' bodies. not a good smell, antiseptic. yuck.

her parents aren't here, i don't know why. Kate Ramone is a nice person, what did she do to deserve this? i tried to read her mind again. she was screaming at the top of her lungs. i didn't want Kate to die, i don't know her that well, but if i lost someone else then... i don't even want to think about it.

Trembling Madness Part 2

i walked through the halls, it was after music class now. I made my way to the boiler room, my life had never been simple but i knew that this trip had to be, wrong. Dead wrong. i was halfway through the halls, when i saw Mike in dire straits.

"you fag! can i really expect that from my team? what the hell is the world coming to?!" one of his teammates screamed, Mike pushed him off of him.

"you cannot be serious! teams support each other" he said

"not when they're off the team" he said, "you looked at me again, and then i'll-" i had taken over him using telepathy, i don't know what came over me, but i was sure that i could influence happiness and make something real, in this case a lie is better than the truth. "i'll do this" he moved for and planted a kiss right on Mike! gasps were heard throughout the hall, and i couldn't seem to get through the wall of people.

i telepathed them all to go away and leave them be. I made my way to the boiler room, suddenly the emo guy ran past me, fear in his eyes and some how there seemed to be blood all over him!

"hey Emo guy! what happened?"

"i-i-i if told you then you'd label me crazy, and call me Kevin" he ran past, i read his mind but his thoughts were racing too fast. i continued my run the boiler room, almost their, but i tripped and twisted my ankle, i hobbled as fast as i could to the boiler room, nothing would stop me!

except for a speedster, named Speed who seemed to be looking for a dealer, i pointed her to Errol Finn. I continued and finally got in.

Kate was trembling on the floor, saying something incomprehensible, i walked over, gently shaking her.

"Kate? wake up! Kate!" i said, it must have been her power and Kevin must have done it. it felt like hours, i'm sure it wasn't that long though. Kate started to stir and she woke up, we talked or rather i talked and she could n't form words. I walked her back to her room, she was unsteady but she made it back. i dropped her off and she told me to go to my room, i reluctantly complied.

i returned to my room, life gave me lemons and i was never good at making lemonade, so all iv' got is lemons. I'm talking to my roommate just boring girl stuff. Lucas called, i told him about Kate, and Mike stopped by, he was happy that it was all out in the open. it's been a big day i'll check back in soon.

Trembling Madness Part 1

i got back in late tonight, tonight, its around 3 i guess, i stuck around at the special screenings a bit longer, i walked through the halls i couldn't wait to just get to bed! but as usual nothing goes my way, i caught myself silently sobbing over my parents, it was their funeral yesterday and i didn't go, even if i was down there i probably wouldn't go but still, a funeral kinda makes it official.

then i started to wonder if i could read peoples dreams, so i let the gate to my powers open and i heard my roommate Nancy dreaming about Short Stack (an Australian band, they were all the rage back home) singing Princess to her while she made out with Chester Bennington from Linkin Park. nothing interesting, its all she thinks about during the day too. i suddenly heard the frantic voice of Kate Ramone, saying something about stopping some guy, for some reason she did seem a bit off to me, like she forgot who she was, i knew that tomorrow i would tell her about my power, i needed someone around. I considered following her but maybe she was just getting up so early in the day to go meet that JD guy she's so into.

i was drifting off to sleep, my eyes were finally coming down when i heard someone scream, i jolted up, a sharp pain in my head showed me that she was trying to control me but failed. i ran down stairs to where i though it had come from, nothing, but then i remembered the boiler room. i ran in, it was locked but i fixed that, i had a bobby pin in my hair, i'm not totally useless!

i ran in, there was the emo/gothic guy from my school lying on the floor, trembling in his sleep, i read his mind, i could hear people voices in there, one of which was Kate's, then i saw Kate on the ground, in the same trembling sleep. i watched them, i didn't know what to do, they were far in the shadows, if it weren't for my mind reading i couldn't see them or hear them. The janitor walked in:

"hey, new girl! you're not supposed to be down here!"

"but i-"

"back to bed, you can fire up you're reefer in the girls toilets" he was scary so i left, and that being scared of janitor thing might have been the reason why i didn't see Kate at our first lesson together: music.

"wheres Kate?" i asked the girl who talks to Kate lots like she's crazy-obsessed with her.

"i don't know, she wasn't at breakfast either, maybe she's sick... and why are you talking to me?"

i walked away, i hated girls who thought everyone was in love with them. i had i wild guess that they were down in the boiler room, i'm posting this when i should be looking up Beethoven and the teacher is headed this way so i better go.

TBC

Here i am

i'm sitting here in my room with my rather pessimistic roommate who actually believes that the world will end in 2012 and seems overly content with it. i met a girl named Kate Ramone today, she seemed nice looked kinda like Michele Pfieffer when she was in Grease 2 so i suppose thats kinda cool i love Grease and Grease 2!

i was bored during music class today, Mr. Cowley seems to ramble on about the littlest things but then again apparently he like to keep guitars safe it seems that last lesson someone dropped one out of the window, he looked like he was looking at Kate when he said that bu tit might have been the girl who was right next to her and wouldn't stop talking to her, she looked like she was obsessed with her.

he didn't show any signs of letting up, in fact the only times when the dude stopped was when he was taking a breath and you could hear noise downstairs from that emo guy from my old school and the Gothic chick (Annie? Andy? Andrea!), so anyways i drowned out all the sounds and let people thoughts wash over me.

they were all thinking about the same basic things:

"this soooooo boring! who cares?"

"maybe he wont noticed if i got up and left for a smoke" and occasionally i came across:

"this floor is so damn thin! maybe this school has termites!! oh god i'm gonna fall through the floor!" that was my roommates thoughts, then i read the static thoughts of Kate Ramone:

"this so boring who cars?! if i wanted to i could go back in time and meet Mozart and kill him so i wouldn't have to sit this!" or something to effect. then suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my head! her thoughts stopped and... ouch! did she have a power? what was she doing to me?!

Now its my free period so im listening to I wanna be Sedated by The Ramones! love them, and just talking with Mike, we plan on sneaking out tonight and going to watch a midnight Screening of The Rocky Horror Picture Show, then Shock Treatment.

i love them, musicals... greatest invention since... The phone!

I cant get the whole Kate thing out of my head, it seems strange sure, but i think i want to tell her about my power! it's clear to me that she has one too, since Lucas isn't here anymore i think i need to talk to someone

I got it!!!!!

I got it! the scholorship to Vince Lombardi! i got it! Missy Lions is sooooo embarrassed!

i'm already packing my bags, Lucas is sad to see me go, and but Mike got a football scholarship, so he's going too, my school maybe small but we have the best of the best!

its more than likely that Annette would have gotten the gymnastics scholarship too, but some girl from Arkansas got it instead.

i ate with Lucas and Mike, Annette was feeling down about the whole gymnastics thing, so she was sitting alone for a bit. i saw Thomas Burbury scooping slop on to our trays, it was definatly the whole "rotting maggots of death" line that got him in THAT job, usually it was just detention.

i sat there and also looked over at the artist kid over on the other end of school, he was (and i don't say this about many people) the worst kind of person, he has no remorse and if he had the chance he'd kill someone, anyways no matter how creepily attractive he is i cant excuse the fact that he is clinically insane, he just has not been caught yet, only a handful of people no the dudes name!

iv'e heard different names for him and i'm not sure which one is real, but that doesn't matter.

i cant wait to go there, i'll keep in contact with Annette and Lucas is staying with aunt Amelia (as was the agreement) so thats good.

next post i will be in my room at Vince Lombardi!

School

I never realized the truth about High school until i saw the way people stared at you or the way they talked behind your back, thinking you can't hear them. That was how i felt whn i walked through those halls, they looked at me with pity, some came up to ask if i was okay and others kept their distance, i didn't mind.

i was feeling better, a bit, Lucas was there for me, as were Mike and Annette, i would be okay i suppose. i had music, i still wanted that scholarship to Vince Lombardi, although i don't know why, maybe just to make them proud... i sat down and played the piano during my free period, i sat there and played For Good from Wicked. i sang it practically flawlessly, i never sang it out of tune, no matter how much sadness i felt i would never sing out of key.

My Aunt Amelia was a nice enough person, she seemed to care for me and even let Lucas stay for a while, but the second he wanted to or the second he turned 18 (which she undoubtedly preferred) he was to leave, we agreed. i was watching Friends it always cheered me up, i was halfway through The One in Vegas, and i was laughing, at Ross and Rachel, best couple ever! when i thought about my power, i turned off the tv and sat and thought about it, did my bio parents have powers too? was i part of some big plan? were the answers right under my nose? i'll never know i suppose.

it was an assembly in the quadrangle, as usual the principal would hand out some certificates from contests that most of us had never heard of, Lucas whispered to me:

"this is so boring, i mean i don't care what the class president has to say? why do we even have a class president?"

i laughed, and said: "do you wanna have some fun?"

"what?" he asked, i concentrated hard, the class president (Thomas Burbury), was about to make his speech, i concentrated hard to make him say exactly what i wanted.

"rotting maggots of death" he said 'there we go' i thought "i know that i won't be up here again, especially after this, i just wanted to say that Ms. Lamon has had more plastic surgery then Michael Jackson... and then some, Josh Davis has pimples all over his you know what, and i know cos i look at him all the time in the lockers, Tasha Sullivan stuffs her bra and for the record i don't do anything as class president and i take bribes from the teachers and i have had the teachers try to buy drugs from Lionel Branson, yeah we all know Lionel!!! and if it weren't for my titanium legs i'd kick all of your asses cos you are all shallow, superficial and losers!!!"

Lucas and i clapped, we seemed to be the only one who were, we cheered and then Tom got outta his trance and realized what he was saying, needless to say we didn't see him for the next week.

Never coming home

it has been a day since Lucas came to stay with me, he had a job and i had to spend the whole day out with my friends Mike and Annette, i had to find some way to break the news to them without telling them exactly why he was staying with me

"guys i have something to tell you" i said, this cant be that hard, i thought to myself, you just string some words together, "i-" this was hard! it wasn't saying it, it was how they would react and that awkward silence that would follow. "i don't know how to tell you this but-um-"

"oh my god!" Cried Annette

"are like-" she lowered her voice: "pregnant?"

"what? no!!!!"

"thank god!" said Mike

"well heres the thing, um- you know Lucas Richards?"

Annette twitched at the name, this was gonna be hard, "yeah?"

"well he had nowhere else to go and, well he's staying with me" i said, Annette had a look of shock on her face, and Mike had a look of worry, i cant tell if it was for Annette or me, Lucas was by many peoples definitions- troubled.

"it's just that i wanted to help and i kinda owed him one"

"why? what could possibly owe that emo?"

"he, well..." i couldn't tell them what happened, "he defied some odds for me" translated to: he used powers that odds are he was lucky to have. they knew i'd say nothing else on the subject, i abruptly left them to get over their shock.

"hey how'd it go?" Lucas asked, he was sitting their watching TV in some jeans and a sweatshirt, but in all honesty- he looked cute.

"they took it like i expected, they just need some time is all"

"yeah, it cant be that bad for them to hear that, its not like we're dating or anything" awkward silence.

we went out for lunch, just some KFC, nothing fancy, i grabbed the tray and sat it down on a table, there was a note on the tray, "i know your secret". i felt this growing fear in my stomach, someone knew? who? i read minds all over, but no-one seemed to be thinking about anything i cared about. it might have just been a prank, i looked closely at the handwriting, i grabbed the paper it felt hot, like searing hot!

"it's probably nothing" Lucas reassured me after much thought.

"maybe" i said. i had some homework to do, we went home, Lucas was good at Science so he helped me, then he went out to get some stuff for dinner he wanted to cook tonight to show how grateful he was to me.

Lucas had just gotten home when i received the call

"hello are you Jane Robertson?" an unfamiliar man asked on the phone

"yes"

"i don't know how to say this but... your parents were in a car accident, they didn't make it. i'm sorry" i dropped the phone, my world had started to spin, i felt the tears streaming down my face and my knees buckling, i know that Lucas comforted me, he hugged me and held me and just let me cry, i must have fallen asleep, i woke up the next morning in my bed, Lucas had carried me there. i walked down the stairs.

"morning" i said, he hugged me he could see the tears in my eyes, you'd think i'd be all cried out but no. i sat down and barely ate, i stayed home from school and Lucas took a sick day at work, we sat around, we didn't say much, what can you say?

i tried not to look in their room, it did not help my cause. a social worker came over and told me that my aunt Lena was going to be my guardian, and she wouldn't arrive for another 2 days, because she's all the way in Greece. Lucas sat with me, Annette and Mike came over too, they'd seen it on the news.

i went to bed and skipped another day of school, i despise the fact that i have so much power over peoples thoughts and emotions but none over fate. i'll have to work on that.

Movies

2 posts in one day! but it was early! i also saw 2 movies in one day! Avatar and Nine, it was no Chicago but i will be buying the DVD i think that the songs were great! and the acting! i was never crazy about Kate Hudson before this but she can sing! i enjoyed Avatar for it's effects, cutting edge! i guess we know what movie will win best visual effects at the Oscars! But it's not the kind of thing i'll want to watch on DVD, it might have beaten Nine at the box-office but for me Nine will be a cult classic! it has al the makings, Avatar will go down in history but Nine will be favored by me!

well that was a pointless post on a blog no-one reads!

Never look back

Theres a reason my parents told me never to talk to strangers, but there's also a reason why i don't tell my parents what i did on certain days, cos sometimes thats all i do: talk to strangers. But some strangers are only there for the people you already know.

Annette doesn't blame me, she knows that her gymnastics is a small price for Lucas's life.

you know i was friends with him once? actually best friends but you know how it goes when you're 14 and you change your outlook and you start to see something else in your friends. in short: in the end i didn't really like my friends, thats how i became friends with Annette and got into dancing and music. Lucas got into his goth and dark sorcery and what not. we drifted. he was so nice and funny, i don't want to sound self absorbed but did i have that effect on everyone when i stopped hanging out with them? he's getting his help and Annette's family isn't pressing charges.

Mike, Annette and i went out for a slushie, they're the only ones who know about my power and i want to keep it that way. we sat down in the booth, we careful about Annette's leg of course. We sat in a booth next to the window, i was taken of guard when Lucas walked in, i instinctively averted my eyes, as did Annette (she forgave him but was still uncomfortable with him), Mike also picked a spot out the window and focused on it.

i read Luc's thoughts.

'i'm so sorry Annette, thats all you have to say- why did you even bother to get out a gun? why didn't you just walk out, and go home you could OD you could run away! no-one would have missed you! i need to say sorry, no she deserves more than a sorry, she deserves levity'

i wasn't sure what Lucas was going to do but i did know that he was not the kind of person who did things for no reason, i had to follow him, when he left i would. he sat as far away from us as possible, which wasn't very far, it was a very small cafe.

"we can go some where else if you want" Mike said, he was a good friend

"no" Annette shook her head "i'll be back at school next week and he'll be there, i may as well get used to it now"

"we don't have to stay, i know you don't blame him, if Jane hadn't stopped him from doing it he would be dead, but none the less it was his fault" he may be a good friend but Mike could be insensitive.

we sat there in relative silence except for the odd grown of brain freeze and the ordering of more drinks, then Mike left to go to the mall to buy a new jacket. Annette called a cab to get home while i sat there. Lucas hadn't moved it was like he was in a trance, or doing something that required no worded thoughts, he was concentrating but not a word had gone through his mind in a half hour.

he got up and walked dizzily to the door, as if sitting in that corner had drained his energy but i suppose there is an art to sitting still. i got up, and walked behind him, i made no sound, i was light on my feet.

we had come to his street now, it was dirt road with few houses but lots of land. he entered a fallen in one, through the window even though it had no door. i looked through the window, his back was to me.

"you night want to leave now" he said, i stayed silent

"i said leave," he still didn't turn around

"i want to help"

"you wanna help? where were you 3 years ago?"

"i-"

"with your shallow friends and lame boyfriends, you never helped, you never raised a hand to stop those jocks from stuffing me in a trash can or beating me up! you were queen! the only reason you want to help now is because your popularity has been flushed since you were considered responsible for Annette's knee by the whole school! i can't get a single thought! just go!"

"you heard him just go" said a voice behind me, that strong stench of alcohol was suffocating, i turned around, it was grungy man, clearly drunk enough to not know what he's doing but not drunk enough to miss a punch. "if you don't go girly it will be a very big shame, well for you're parents at least"

"what?" i breathed he was so close i could tell the size of his shirt, he grabbed my wrist. hard, i yelped in pain, and tried to run, but he had me, i fought and tried to control his mind to no avail. i could tell i was in trouble, i closed my eyes, he came near me, but i felt nothing, he had let go, the alcohol breath was gone, i opened my eyes, he was gone.

i turned around Lucas stood there, fear and protectiveness in his eyes, he had his arms stretched out, their was some kind of green gas surrounding his hands, he lowered his arms the gas disappearing, i looked at the ground where the man i'm sure was Mr Richards was, it was damp and had small bubbles coming off of it, it may not have been weird for it to damp but it hadn't rained for weeks!

"are you okay?" he asked me, he climbed through the window. i hugged him tightly, i felt so completely safe with him.

"thank you" i said

"you're so very welcome" he said, hugging me back, we ran off, we could hear sirens in the distance, someone had called the cops, and how could we explain what had happened? we wrote a note saying that Lucas had ran away, so that they'd assume that Mr. Richards had gone after him.

we ran back to town, and didn't stop until we got to my street, my parents were away for the week, so Lucas would stay with me.

4 times i knew a secret and one time a didnt

the first time was when I was tasked by my PE teacher to choreograph the cheerleaders, a few of them were what they call, rhythmically challenged, while i was choreographing those voices kicked in, and if i didn't know any better i'd almost think that they were the cheerleaders thoughts! one of them (Sarah Solomon) was thinking about why Missy Lions is always on top of the pyramid, then i had this off thought, go and ask her and if she says: "cos i'm better than you" then start cat fighting her"

then she did it. it was amazing she stopped dancing and went over to her the next thing i know she's doing it! it was strange to think that i'd done that. i couldn't have though! at least that was my thought then. i had no idea those cheerleaders actually had the brains to feel jealous of Missy Lions!

the second time was while i was looking at Mike Reynolds (the hottest guy in school) during Math, it was after his football practice so he looked all hot sweaty and stuff, then IT kicked in and ruined every fantasy i ever had about him, he was thinking:
"god Jake Stiles looked hot today! i mean he was hot hot! in the locker room especially, good thing i adjusted my pants!" then he laughed out loud. i don't believe it!!! this was... wow! i told Annette and she said that i was crazy.
"if he were straight then he would have no problem talking with US cause we are kinda hot i mean you're a gymnast and i'm a dancer! but if he's gay then he'll do anything to get off the subject of anything related to those big manly things like Linkin Park, and he'll engage in actual conversation with us about dresses!"
"we'll see!" Annette was so sure she was right, but i was right. he is now a great friend, we only now about his little secret but still...

the third time i knew a secret was when i was in detention for pulling ACCIDENTALLY breaking the blind in English. the happiest teacher in the whole world (Mr. Day) was sitting there looking depressed, then i decided that i did want to know whats wrong, maybe i could help. turns out his divorce was just finalized and he lost everything and is living out of a suitcase. i cant help.

the forth was at a local gymnastics competition, i was there to watch Annette and give her moral support, then i found out that her mother and father had bet that she'd lose to Kazino Kareniki from Japan! i didn't know if should tell her or not, i mean her parents did need the money but Annie is my best friend! i left it and she won, her mom and dad lost a lot of money but i convinced a rich fat cat to give me 1000 big ones, i used my mind power, yep i'm sure that its a mind power!

the one time i didn't: was when i was sitting a test in math, this test would make or break me, then the weird, emo and depressed kid, Lucas Richards stood up, tears in his eyes, this is unfair i didn't eve study i couldn't! with you f*cking idiots sending me to the councilor every day! and with those people at home! i'll fail anyway why even bother testing me!?" he grabbed a gun from his pocket and held it up to his head, "why the hell should i keep going cos all you idiots want to do is give me someone to talk to!? i was fine till i talked! now you all send me to her? i don't need help! i just want to be left alone!"
"stop!" i yelled
"what Janie? huh?" he still had the gun in his hand, "you cant stop me, you and your perfect dancing and singing, in the end it's all gonna be gone and as long as you know it's gonna end,why begin? why keep going cos the second you slip up people think you need help!"
"you are a good guy Lucas, you're smart and have dark humor that makes me laugh in when its not a good time, no-one wants you to do this" i should have seen it the signs, the mind reading i did! i never bothered to read his?
'dont do it, put the gun down' i chanted in my mind.
BANG!!!! it was deafening, he had dropped the gun, he listened to me! but it fired.
"ARRRGHGHGHG!" screamed Annie, the bullet had got her square in the knee.
that knee would take a while to heal and she wouldn't be able to do gymnastics again, her talents wasted. all because i ignored the emo.

Strange

Hi my name is Jane Robertson and my life is like any normal teenage girls i go to school, i'm an average student, in fact i'm average at everything in my life. the only thing i'm not average at is music, singing dancing playing music, etc. i've noticed something peculiar as of late though, i hear voices in the library and no-one talks in there! the librarian Ms. Goods is CRANKY as!!!!! i hear things i'm not supposed to, i know things i wouldn't know in a million years!!! i live in Alabama in a small town that isn't even worth mentioning, but being a 17 year old animal rights activist who listens to musicals and depressing music in equal turns i dont mention much stuff.

so anyway i'm trying to get a music scholer ship to Vince Lombardi boarding school but my parents are so afraid to let me go anywhere they're afraid i'll forget them (i'm adopted ya see) and they think that the second i meet my real parents (i don't want to anyway but try telling them that!) i'll leave them and not call. anyway its weird, i'm here cos my friend Annette (she's a gymnast) suggested this, she says that alot of people seemingly experience this stuff and they might know something if you do leave a comment.