Raves and BOOM

We walked around Arlington U, everybody was talking about Claire Bennet, i guess the way to get noticed in this college is by jumping off of high places.

"blah blah blah" i said, i was wearing my black attire, but i'm not a total goth, it's a hot day so i'm wearing short shorts (black) a Ramones T-shirt (black) that says Gabba Gabba hey!

i walked around, a blonde and two brunettes walked past (thinking about Claire) they were worried about her, everyone else was gossiping about it and they were worried! must have been friends.

"rave starts tonight" says Lucy. i nodded and dragged Lucas all over campus (i was hungry).

the rave started at the animal testing place. we yelled chants picket signs, and screamed at people, a few fights but nothing major. The n a guard came out, i really wanted to help these people so i convinced the guard (telepathicaly) to let us in.

we let the animals run free and knocked out the guards, then a guy came running dow the hall, bronzed over eyes, he made a mad grab for me he was after me! but why? everyone else was out now and Lucas was waiting for me anxiously outside, as a i began to run for the entrance i saw it close, he shot what felt like an invisible bullet at me it scrapped my arm, i couldn't override whatever was controlling his mind, he was still after me i ran up stairs, jumped the railing and headed downstairs.

i ran through the dark halls, i opened my phone up, light shone through as my eyes widened i heard his heavy footsteps. their i saw it, a bunch of people were on a table all of them were being sedated, i pulled out their sedation things, i had to get them out as they came round a girl of about 25,26 (she looked younger but i could tell she was around that) asked me:

"where the hell were you 1 year ago?!" she leaped off the table and i steadied her, she shot a huge storm of electricty and the room lit up and the man was burned to a crisp, then Lucas fell through the roof.

"Lucas!" i cried, the blond girl (i'm just gonna call her Blondie) scowled at us, he thoughts were a bit paranoia filled but whatever.

another came to, she looked exactly like Blondie!

"thank you so much!" she cried, i liked her better than Blondie, "Elle did you say thank you?!"

"they were late" her sister explained.

"i'm Kristen, friends can call me Kris or Kristie"

"hi Kristen" i said. she looked a bit taken a back but that didn't matter, other's were coming to now.

"we gotta go, but then-

BANG! a huge wave of flames spread through the room, and then followed by water, then acid, Lucas made a hole in the wall so we could get out, i grabbed out a gun i had gotten (don't ask how i got it, all will be explained someday) and shot at the guy who was giving off radiation, i missed him and it got him in the arm, he went berserk! everyone ran as fast as they could and i tried to calm him, i couldn't be responsible for more deaths, then Lucas disintegrated him! he looked torn up about doing so but he did it and that was good of him.

"thanks" i said

"don't thank me yet" he said, then the water guy froze the entire place he looked out of control, before we could do anything the entire place shattered, and news camera's were everywhere, i made them forget and Lucas destroyed their camera but i couldn't make one of them forget, he had bronze eyes too, and he was holing a camera, what was worse was before we could blink, he was gone.

Roxy's Revelation

i woke Lucas up telepathically, he needed to know that the world knew about powers.

"that is dumbest girl in the world! blondes say they want to be treated equally but this blond is like the epitome of-"

"use another big word and i'll cut you" i said.

"we need to diffuse this" Lucas' face shone with worry, the sun had just began to rise he looked tired as hell, "any idea's?"

"i could kill her" i said, it just slipped out, im 80% sure it was jokingly though. he glared at me shocked.

"that was a joke" i said.

"better be" he said, i heard Roxanne stirring, before i could send her back to sleep she asked me something.

"how long have you had a power?"

"i-i-i" i stuttered, i had no idea she knew! how? "i don't know what you're talking about" i said.

"yes you do, i heard you wake him up tell him about powers being discovered, and then your incessant ramblings followed" she said, "sorry, but i had to use a big word, i'll cut myself later" she said sarcastically.

"do you have a power?" i asked her.

"used to, but then i got wind of Claire Bennet's 'attempt' as she so delicately put it, so i knew that people would be after us soon enough, and even if they weren't imagine societies prejudices against us! The whole reason i suggested that we stop over at the New Ages festival is so i could meet up with a Payed Aurris, which is an Aurris who is payed for taking people's powers" she explained.

"what power did you have?" i asked her, she grabbed out her ipod and showed us a video.

"okay, i'm only gonna do this once so hold that camera steady" said a younger version of Roxy.

her hands flew to her sides and ground rose above her and twisted in the air, old house's sunk through the ground and as more people walked by and watched the more who were killed, she showed no remorse, she's a murderer but it was either kill them or be killed.

"The names Roxanne Harper and i just killed a whole bunch of people, 128 to be exact. Reece you better have held that freakin camera steady, now off!" the camera fumbled but turned off.

"earth?"

"i'm a new agey hippy would'ya spect?" she asked, "for me to be nucular?"

"are the others powered too?"

"god no! Reece doesn't even know about my powers anymore, i had a friend take away his memories while building 26 was operating, i couldn't take risks"

"what was building 26?" I asked, Lucas nodded he wanted to know too.

"doesn't matter now" she said solemnly.

we were all awake now, Lucy was driving, we would be at Arlington U in about an hour, we'd convinced Roxy to keep our secret (she didn't need any persuasion).

"hey Ja-Anya, can you pass over a soda?" asked Lucas, we were trying to get used to our new names.

"yeah sure James" i said. my ipod in my ears blaring some heavy metal i'd got off Jack's computer, it was some thing by a band called Warlords, they were pretty good!

we stopped over at a little diner for a bite to eat, i really liked their fries. it was uneventful, a guy did come in intent on robbing it, but i sent him on his way before he could say a word.

my next post will be at the rave in Arlington.

Finding Out and Dying inside

We've just left Danville here Virginia, we plan on stopping over at Arlington for this huge rave about animal rights, that sounds cool.

iv'e been awake for 5 days, i can't sleep, i'm hyped up on coffee, while everyone's asleep i silently sob, the thoughts of everything creep up on me sometimes, Lucas is still in shock over the whole me killing the fortune lady, he tried to stay up with me but i got him to just go to sleep, i'm driving still, i convince myself to stay awake, my subconscious tempts me into the darkness of my dreams but i won't follow. too painful.

iv'e come up with a system, if i fall asleep even for a second i cut my arm, the pain keeps me awake, proves i'm alive and can feel.

against my better judgment, Defying Gravity entered my mind and i hummed the tune quietly. i hated my life but i couldn't bare it if i went back home, why do i continue to call it home?

my new name is Anya, Anya Stevens. it's not fancy but it works, Lucas has taken the name James Valley, again, not flashy.

i have large dark circle under my eyes but i don't care, i don't have the strength to care.

our next switch is in an hour, the roads are clear and iv'e always been good at multi tasking, hence the blogging and driving simultaneously.

when we get to Arlington we plan on going to that rave and stopping animal testing, but i'll watch out for the- omg!

i just saw this video! omg! a girl just jumped off a sixty foot ferris wheel!? how did i not- oh yeah, i haven't really been looking at the latest news, i sent the vid out to to everyone on my friends list, i had to, i loved to gossip.

oh yeah, Kate Ramone was on that list, she'll never see it, i bet she would have gotten a kick out of this. so sad.

New Ages

Sorry i haven't posted for a while, its been wild!

I let my new hippy friends stop off at a secret festival held out in the middle of nowhere: New Ages.

The music was the kind i had never heard before, unknowns i guess, singing about final statements, like the kind we talked about in the car last post.

i looked through the sea of people, some seemed to be dressed like they belonged at Woodstock! others looked like they were in the live aid concerts back 85'! all these people loved the past so much and saw so profoundly, it was so strange! but cool, Lucas looked bewildered and unsure about this place, but so was i.

"this place has some of the greatest music ever AND most of them live around here in trailers! nowhere else to go" said Jack, i nodded but i was off to see the future in a nearby tent.

Lucas had followed me to make sure i don't get into any trouble.

"Ah, Jane, what brings you in here?" asked a woman with flames tattooed all over her body.

"i, um... future" i said, i didn't know what to say.

"future? please, heres your future... you are on the road to certain destruction a changed name and address will not take away the memories that haunt you, i expect that you'll never be any better, parents gone, friends gone, except for Lucas of course and it is your fault of the school going up right?" i cried. her thoughts were: 'pathetic girl'. i felt hot tears down my face, i didn't like that at all, i thought to my self 'drop dead!' because i could n't say to her because of my uncontrollable sobbing. then she dropped dead.

"oh my god! shes dead" said Lucas, i looked at him stunned,

"it was me, i did it i told her to drop dead and she did" i wailed.

"it could have been anything! heart failure, aneurysm, anything!"

"don't try and make me feel better"

"it was not you!" he said, i read his mind, he knew it was true he just didn't want to believe it.

we ran out of the tent before anyone would notice, i couldn't believe it, i had told someone's brain to stop their heart from beating, shes dead!

i tried to enjoy the rest of the day with my friends.

Jack: the conspiracy theorist

Roxanne: the one who believes that death solves all the problems in the world

Lucy: she's ditzy and has red hair, reminded me of Lucy from I love Lucy

Reece: he's a real wacko, but a good guy.

"OMG! the fortune teller girl just dropped dead!" cried Jack, everyone just stood around her applauding and snickering, she wasn't well loved.

"finally somebody offed her! we got a guardian angel in our midst!" cried Roxy

we left shorty after her burial (don't ask) we hit the road again, with lots of souvinears and CD's to boot! the CD's were from the unknown bands and stuff but sounded good, i was still rattled over killing her but... i kinda helped, people were happy she was dead! strangely enough i felt horrible and disgusted about it, but content with it.

"another grand statement, death answers all problems, she was such a bitch!" Roxy cried excitedly, i was driving now, i figured i needed some reason to stay awake.

till next time. bye

Roads to nowhere

the flight was uneventful, i wanted alcohol, they gave me alcohol cos i used my power on them.

Lucas and i sat in relative silence the whole way there, he tried to strike up a conversation about something that wouldn't remind me of the school or my parents, i can tell, i have mind reading. it was no use.

we landed and we imediatly stopped for a bite. we were lost, lucas always said that he knew how to read maps!

"i thought you knew how to read maps!"

"no i sad that i could figure it out! if i knew where north was then this would be easier!" he cried, he was being shrill, and in a neighborhood like this: thats not cool.

"shut up will ya!?" yelled a disgruntled man from across the street, 'rotten kids' he thought.

"okay so thats west down there" he pointed

"what you pointin' at?!" exclaimed a man behind us

"nothing!" i said bitterly, i tried not to look at him, he sounded angry.

"you were not!" he grabbed out a gun and pointed it at us, i tried to command him but his mind was all cloudy from drugs and alcohol, in the end it was Lucas who disintegrated him.

people started to notice that, we ran as people yelled after us and shots were fired but Lucas had learned a few tricks, he created a barrier that destroyed anything that came near it.

we made it to a main road and we caught up with some hippy albino's on their way to NY, well they weren't at first but now they are.

"why are you guys going to new York?" asked the one that was listening to his IPod VERY loudly, i'm pretty sure that it was The Beatles.

"we plan on going there to start a brand new life" i said loudly so he could hear me

"psychadelicikal!" cried Roxanne, she was driving and made up a lot of words

"yeah, we want the whole shebang! new life, new names, forgetting everything from our pasts!" i said excitedly, i was excited, i'm still sad but happy about the journey, it seems that i'll always be sad but happy ness can seep in, so i'm.... grey.

"hey guys have you seen those conspiracy theories about Vince Lombardi?" asked Jack, he was in the back with us, i tensed and felt happy ness drift away.

"hell yeah! whoever blew that up is a psycho! but OMG, a psychedelic psycho! finally someone is making the grand statement! schools don't get destroyed and they don't crumble because of society, they crumble because they ARE society! groovy!" yelled Roxanne, they all nodded in a agreement and i felt better, maybe they were better off dead, they made a final statement.

you gotta spend money to make money, kill 500 and save 1000, and so many more quotes like that make sense to me now!

i know that it's not our abilities that make us who we are, but our choices, but this time they're intertwined, if i hadn't found my power than i would be dead right? i should make more of these choices, not killing schools but... making a difference, the world could be united by grief, and then they're just united. look at Romeo and Juliet! they're deaths called a truce between their warring families, its as true now as it was 400 years ago!

Everything and nothing

Alabama can be stereotypes for having a bunch of hicks (my town of Renholm especially) but we are smart, well most of us are.

I keep on having the worst dreams about my parents and about the whole school explosion thing, i feel like it's all piling on top of me and if it weren't my idea to get the principal to enter our school in that scholarship contest then this wouldn't have happened at all!

MY FAULT.

I can't seem to get over it, i keep on looking over my shoulder and thinking that maybe the students are happier, i mean i may as well face it, not a single clique at that school could get along, its obvious to me that the only place they'll ever truly get along is in heaven. The high school is hell. HELL.

Maybe they're all better off dead, maybe their was some kinda illness that would have killed them all and they would have died painfully instead of quickly.

i have got to stop thinking this!! i don't sleep anymore, i hardly blink, no speaking and barely eat, i can't even fake a smile.

my aunt wants to take me to a therapist, could help i guess, it can't hurt me anymore than i already am. but i feel realer more aware about what can happen, Lucas understands better than anyone else about it, Mike is shaken up, Annette's worried about us both (she's walking better now, but limping a bit).

i'm not singing anymore, in fact i don't walk around anymore, what's the point? i'll just make another dumb decision that'll cost people their lives.

"How do you feel about the recent occurrences in you life Jane?" asked my therapist, her expression said nothing, so i read her mind 'this poor kid, i can't even imagine what she went through'

i felt this helplessness rise in me, and anger, hatred everything under the sun, except forgiveness.

"i don't need your freakin' pity!!" i screamed, i swung the door open and it just about broke off its hinges. my therapist looked in utter shock.

i walked around for ages, i'm sure that i punched a few walls, i'm not sure. i felt so responsible, i was crying when i got home, i walked up to my room ignoring everything my aunt and Lucas said. i sat down and looked at every poster on my walls, Wicked, Grease, Chicago, Moulin Rouge, Short Stack, Linkin Park and so many others. fakes, fake lives fake stories, happy endings, sad endings but always so contrived. I grabbed the scissors off my desk and sliced and cut every poster into confetti, cutting my hands a lot in the process, i didn't mind, it's a small price to pay.

i knew that somewhere inside of me there was still the Jane who loved musicals and dancing and singing, it made me sick. So sick i through up for most of the night until dinner, i didn't eat.

i couldn't be in this town, people looking at me in pity, i hated it.

i dress in black now, it goes with everything and nothing. like me. I'm a human, completely normal in every way, but i don't fit anywhere in this picture that is the world.

it was midnight, i packed my things and through up because i had let myself fall asleep, and i had one of THOSE dreams, they still made be sick. i climbed out the window, only to be met by Lucas.

"Jane, don't leave, you can get some help, we're here for you" he said soothingly, 'go bcak to bed' i yelled at him telepathically, he turned, then it was like he fought it, he turned back around.

"if you don't want to stay then i don't, i'm coming" he said. i shrugged in a whatever gesture.

We walked to the airport, it was morning when we had finally got there but luckily we had bought the tickets. our airport was small and cheap, i guess thats a plus. it would take us to North Carolina, where we planned to hitch hike to New York.

Explosive Endings

its gone. Vince Lombardi boarding school is in ashes, everyone in it has perished. Kate included. i heard the explosion, it sent shock waves through everyone when we heard. only JD, Andrea, Me, her obnoxious "friends", one of which was real (Lana?) and my roommate are alive, this is horrible!

i braced myself, that piece of paper that she had given me was i my hand, i sat in a church, i wasn't religious but i figured this is as good a time as any to pray right? i opened the piece of paper, my hands shook while tears rolled down my cheeks.

hey if you're reading this than i'm probably dead, i just had to leave this for you:

798969594, call it. if you EVER need help, it'll only work once though so make it important, its a secret iv'e had or a while, i used it while i was in the past, bye.

wow, it's a helpline. nice going away gift i guess, i suppose i'll use it sometime, i gotta go back to Alabama now, i guess its for the best. how do i get over this?